Blast From The Past

Wow, I haven't been on my blogger account for quite some time now, geez, not like Im crazy popular, but just for my own sake of not keeping blog posts up. Well I can say A LOT has changed since my last post. Unfortunately I had to sell my bike due to crisis on my life but I have been putting the pieces back together again since a crazy bump in my life I had to over come, should i say several.... It has been a cRaZy year for me and I have definitely grown from these experiences. 


“If you will call your troubles experiences, and remember that every experience develops some latent force within you, you will grow vigorous and happy, however adverse your circumstances may seem to be.” 


 I've lost and gained in Love, now with marriage, and Lost and gained in a special kind of Love as a mother. Since I no longer have a Bike I will not be posting any more blogs on this account, However I will keep it up as it reminds me of how much I grew and just a memory of a piece of my life, but since I have a new journey I am setting foot in, you can tag along with me on a separate account

http://bumpgoesbaby.blogspot.com/

“I think we all wish we could erase some dark times in our lives. But all of life's experiences, bad and good, make you who you are. Erasing any of life's experiences would be a great mistake.” 


Good Bye, Beauty Biker Girl


(Sorry I had to redo the link It should work now) :)

Traveling Heart

My Heart has come so far, Not knowing what Love was to knowing how Love can feel, how it changes your soul your touch the way you perceive things, Love is wonderful and for all that is Love, Love is also sour and bitter, Love has shown me the paper thin craziness that brings these emotions, Love has shown me the gallows of hurt, the knife of pain and the loneliness it can take from you as well as give you.

Love might as well be banned as it is wanted, there is no compromise with Love, there is only acceptance. Accepting that one day you will be loved and that loved one might tear the very essence of your being, destroying what piece of humanity you have left in your heart

From my personal experience, Love is Everything I wished for...yet...everything I'm dreadfully afraid of. Losing yourself with someone can be clearly blind to an outsider yet so blurred in our own vision. It can fell like free falling, so high with love knowing you let yourself go and you are free, than as you get closer to reality (the ground) you realize that that feeling goes away fast and your suddenly faced with "pulling the cord" to save your life.... or plumit to the ground to the death. For those who "pull the cord",(essentially keeping your love) you are still high yet not high enough but soundly fall to the ground on your feet (symbolizing you havent given up) for those who give up on the happiness (not pulling the cord) you could have had but are too afraid to remain in that "high" state of mind, therefore plummeting to loves grave and ending that feeling.

Love is beautiful, yet so ugly
Love is made, and broken
Love is comforting, yet sometimes lonely
Love is the essence of humanity, without it there is no sense of purpose
Everyone wants to feel loved and wanted, not one soul wants to die knowing they had no one who loved them back
Love is instilled in us, Love is all around us
So Forgive and let Love
Let Love thrive in you, love not only for others but for yourself!
And You'll see sooner or later you WILL be Loved <3

Fork in The Road

Yesterday and the day before I did something that I never thought I'd do again...I prayed...and for that moment a rush of emotions came bursting in with such force that it brought tears rolling down my cheeks with a constant flow. I know I haven't been the best person in the world but I asked for forgiveness and for hope, nothing has gone as planned in my life lately and honestly I'm getting use to it. I am by no means a religious person, last time i attended church was more than a year ago...I believe i do...sometimes it just feels good knowing theres something out there other than yourself, or maybe your just talking to yourself motivating yourself alone in the dark, with only a candle lighting up the empty darkness. I was amazed I still knew how to pray and the prayer itself, even in spanish, either way I did it and for some reason i feel like it was something I had to do for myself and also for others who I was praying for.

So ENOUGH, about this religious stuff everyone has their own opinions but I felt a sense of relief when I prayed and I might just keep on doing it from the privacy of my own bed, just to myself.

I was inspired enough to write a poem-just my feelings on what has been going on lately in my life:

-Fork in the Road-

gazing into the mist, I feel my hearts sorrow
walking towards an endless tomorrow,
as each step I take it gets heavier to swallow,
my thirst for life, hope and happiness is shot down by another.I'll follow,
This pounding in my chest weakens me at my knees,
I struggle to keep walking, can't do it, why is it so hard to please?
I carry the weight of someone ten fold my size,
But I'm stubborn and try to minimize,
the weight I have but its no use,
I brought this heavy load on me, now its time to choose,
My knees buckle as sweat pores down my chest,
I finally give in give out , theres nothing left!
I fall down a hundred times over and over again,
As I gaze broken and torn I see the fork ahead of me it's my destiny alone,
I had two choices I had two souls, but which zenda which is the fairest one of all?!
As I pondered there, bleeding from my soul, I wiped the tears from my face and scream, I'm in control!!
The heavy load still weighing down my small frame,
I took a deep breath and let it all rain,
I took those tears I took the pain I took it all and ran away,
I didn't choose which way
I choose to leave it My Way!
I created a new pathway, I formed a new slate,
For this is my life my happiness and I deserve it to be MY way.

Mucho Amor,
BBG

Communication much???

As babies we gibber jabber and try to come up with words, as we get older we form those mixed up letters into words and thus we start communicating with one another. But there is a slight difference between the progress of this trait that women seem to posses more than men. Apparently once men reach an age where they can talk they don't want to listen!

Without no communication there is no relationship, correct? you would think that in order to get your ideas, your opinions your feelings and emotions out you must speak up and not only talk but listen as well. Well this is kinda hard for me to understand considering all the men I dated which wasn't that many, only seemed to be interested in one thing, ofcourse sex, thats a No brainer. But I find the men that I had been with in a relationship and have dated can't really communicate as much as a women can.

This really frustrates me only because I'm a very verbal person and LOVE to talk about anything from the starts in the sky to weird things like vampires to intriguing discussions about life, death and so on. I really miss being able to talk to someone about these types of things but I guess I will have to either work on it with whomever I'm with or just find another person to have these very unique conversations with. Who wants to be my Txt buddy?! lol joking.

The key to any relationship is communication, if theres no communication trust goes out the window and people do things behind your back that will never be forgiven.

Speak up, communicate & I'm sure your partner would enjoy what you have to say....I sure know how I would feel, very pleased indeed :0)

Mucho Amor,
BBG

Let GO of the Past! Please??!

Have you ever had an ex boyfriend who just COULDN'T, LET GO?! I just find it simply Amazing when I do my best to make both sides of the story play out as each wants but to my dismay it only erupts to a bitter sad ending. What I'm trying to say is that, some guys can't let some one who they Loved so much go, my reasoning behind this is because some men just don't know what they have until they have lost it, never a chance of having it back. It's ashame how a lot of men go through this phase, and forever holding the thought of that person in their heads.

I just get sick of playing these games, especially when you lived with an ex and they transform into this unrealistic jerk who puts a front that they never Loved you in the first place. Before you know it your out the door, too mixed with emotions to have your head full on tight and your FORGET something! Than you have to look like an idiot and come back for it only to not get your belongings back. I hate that ish.

Holding on to these items just means you still want to hold onto what we USE TO have, past tense. I assure you I will never go back to an ex, I believe in second chances but not more than 1.

"Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me"

Either way, there are legal rights to items that legally belong to you, and so I will just have to continue with this in Court.

Fun Stuff...

"Letting go might be the hardest thing to do, but ultimately its something you MUST do, in order to live the life you were meant to live."

"Things have been said and done and theres nothing but the past to remind us of this, there is no longer a You & I, there is just You and your future and Mine with my own, each as separate as if going down a fork road, we were never meant to be & so you Must move on to follow your own road"

Mucho Amor,
BBG

SOLD!

So, this Blog is very hard to post because I know I will disappoint many of my fans and supporters close to 300 faithful supporters to be more specific. Well...you see, though I enjoyed riding my bike and enjoyed the many different people I met through riding, it has all come to an end. I have Sold my Bike! Sold it to a very nice young man who is going to ride that bike more than I ever have! I barely road and didnt have much time to, on top of that I wanted to pay off my school loans so I can continue my education!

YES

I'm going BACK to school to get My AAS in Diagnostic Sonography, since I have already complete My Pharmacy Technician program I've decided to add more experience to my resume' and jump into what I really wanna do! My End result is having my Bachelors in Applied Science and working in a Gyno clinic. I would LOVE to see the expression of a mommy to be as she and the daddy gaze into this screen into the belly and seeing this beautiful life growing inside of her. Besides that I would also do other types of ultrasounds to help women with fertility problems and seeing with sound waves what could potential be the cause of her infertility. Just so much to learn and I am SO excited!

My hubby, is all for this and wants me to go back to school FULL TIME, which I already start this summer, I have 8 classes left to complete until I start my program. I hope I have All your support still and understanding of this decision,

This Does NOT mean I won't be uploading any videos of Motorcycles, I still very much enjoy riding one, I have a few friends who own bikes & I'm sure won't have a problem with me recording them...well....maybe they will think I'm a little weird lol but I'm SURE they already know that lol.

It has been so much fun learning and experiencing a new world...through the eyes of the Motorcyclist..I have gained respect for All who ride & wish everyone of those faithful riders to Remain proud and Ride Safe!


Mucho Amor,
BeautyBikerGirl

Video Update!

So I have Finally took the time I had to create a video that many of my subscribers/followers have been asking for, not any subject in particular but more so you all have been wondering how I was doing with my bike regarding the damages and what not and if i have gone back on that horse to ride again. To all of my faithful fan heres to you!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dSM4qzHgvr0

Thank you Thank you Thank you for having faith that I will return once again lol

Love you All <3

XoXo
Beautybikergirl